Trying

Count the stairs in my head
He'll be outside in one two
And I hear you

Adjust expression
I open the door

Holding a pillow
In my doorway

Holding a pillow
Because you're staying the night

To the Tune of Vanilla Twilight

I'll paint the world Aspen White
Until it's brighter than sunlight
I'll find a spot of shade, and hide away


I'll spin around in circles
It gives me a sense of purpose
I'll write a letter I wont send because I don't mean to offend.

I'll put my things in a bag
Run to where it isn't so bad
But I'm not so sure that country's on the map.

So I sit in a corner
Stay quiet try no to bother
with trivial things like food and sleep and unsatisfactory company.

I'll feel better one day soon
When my voice reaches the turquoise moon
Because that's where all the good things are

But drowning in self worry
I lie awake with my vision blurry
Analyzing the possible reasons why I always feel alone
I always feel alone
I always feel alone
I always feel alone

The days all turn into restless nights, like tonight

When Melbourne days turn warmer
When girls all shed their sweaters
I'll take a breath and step out again.

I'll put away all that I felt
And if I am ever compelled
to reveal my true self, I'll bite my tongue
and smile instead
Oh darling keep it all inside.

Alexander

Every move is calculated,
Every cutting glance is part of the plot
Set yourself up for more disappointment
It's the only thing close to emotion you've still got

Pop another ten,
We can't keep it down if it's not mood-alleviating
Pop another ten
Down in one gulp, for me.

So the doctor says its pointless
A lost cause, the ships already sunk
What's there left to hold on to
Who wants to save the anorexic drunk?

Pop another ten,
We cant keep it down if it's not mood-alleviating
Pop another ten
Down in one gulp, for me.

You look so good in your bright red shirt, the one I'll never see you in
You look so good in your bright red shirt, the one I'll write NOW WHAT on

untitled, to be continued

I say your name out loud
to an empty room
I was afraid I 'd forgotten how it sounds
I cannot afford to forget, this soon.

am i the only one feeling alone?
i know I am not
now make me believe it.

temperature drops
heart rate rises


turn the volume up
lets drown out
oh, everything.

which is more fashionable,
i'm so sad, so i don't eat,
i'm so sad, so i do nothing but eat.
let me know, thanks.

am i the only one feeling alone?
i know i am not, i know i am not

Now make me believe it.

Untitled

The signs showing we were meant to be
used to come from all directions
loving the beach, and inside jokes
the pain we had been through, the secret codes
Where did they go?

I swear you are my soul mate
I used to know that for a fact.
But now you're in your room and I'm sitting here
This loss of communication was always my biggest fear
Where did we go?

Old photographs always make my heart hurt
the times we shared are irreplaceable
eating junk, running aimlessly in the heat
dancing outside my car to a Mcfly beat
I need you back,

you're my best friend.

Your Socks Will Always Fall

The sound of deep sleep breathing
Is one I no longer make
Instead I make shadows on the wall
Twirling in the twilight, alone and awake

It has not been long since you left,
I write to my happiness
But I miss you oh i miss you
You left me in such a mess.

I do remember what it is like
To be a person content
To do nothing with my someone
And know it is a day well spent.

But for now I clean the room
The dust it will not leave
For now I keep my body busy
And try to remember what it is to believe.