Colour-Fast Bleach

This is a song i wrote some time back, for the person who made me see how jaded i was and revived whatever soul I had left.



Like the first light at five in the morning

You bring with you a new day and new hope

Like old school high school romance

You are two kids and a boat

On a lake

Feeding ducks

mmhmm ;)

Like cruising down the highway so fast it whips your hair

Into a frenzy on your cheeks and neck

So fast you know you cant turn back

Anymore

You're like that feeling noone can describe

They can try but you can't describe

What it is when someone makes you feel

Like you make me feel

But i think the closest word would be

Light

A feather a cloud something that floats about

A leaf in the air

Something tiny and rare

That cant control where it goes

But its going up up up

You're like that feeling noone can describe
They can try but you can't describe
What it is when someone makes you feel
Like you make me feel
But i think the closest word would be
you make me feel

All Right

do you like the colour green

it's funny how every time i think the worst is over
you show up and prove me wrong
spit in my face the vulnerability
that got me here in the first place

this cup of coffee is cold from the time spent reminiscing
with my head in shaking hands and the warmth that is missing
from the rooms and the bed that once felt like home
the rooms and the bed in which i am alone

was it real
was it real
was it real
was it real

the blinds stay shut like the door to my heart
since you stole the key and left me in the dark
with the thoughts in my head becoming dreams
in which i tiptoe on a balance beam
then fall into nothing and am left with wondering

was it real
was it real
was it real
was it real

Overdue

The sky rains my tears
on the window of this morning train as
I close my puffy eyes and
will my heart to slow down, slow down
I am such a silly thing
It was you who was left alone, I whisper
So why am I not feeling any better?

I guess the distance doesn't matter
A broken heart will remain shattered
I guess time doesn't always work
To heal the wounds that start
from the deepest hurt

The evening sky spills
Red and purple across the city as
I haul this aching body another step, and another
It was such a stupid thing
We could never e together
So when do I start feeling better???

I guess the distance doesn't matter
A broken heart will remain shattered
I guess time doesn't always work
To heal the wounds that start
from the deepest hurt

And this night is for you.
I stand alone and think of you
And when the sun comes and the stars go
My thoughts of you
will
go
too.

19-09-08

Forgive my lack of creativity
But when you smile it takes my breath away.
There's no better way to say it, believe me I've tried.
I thank fate for deciding you and I should collide
I thank the heavens I have you in my life.

The pessimist is what I was
But how do I find the dark side of eternal light?
There's no point in looking, there isn't one.
I always thought happiness was overrated
I told myself I'd hate it.
But you proved me wrong and I couldn't be more glad
Because nothing could ever compare
To the extinction of the pessimist, the exorcism of the skeptic,
The death of hate
The discovery of Life

19-08-08

She takes off her clothes
And turns to look in the mirror
Harder and harder she stares at her reflection
But the image isn't getting any clearer
The sting of tears clouds her vision
The worst has happened, confirming her suspicion


This was a mistake, she screams
This was a mistake, don't trust in dreams
This was a mistake
Burning your name into my skin

A photograph in a shoebox
Brings her back to the past
Laughing and running she sees herself
She hates time, it flies too fast
Her breathing slows, her mind is calm
The memory of your smile is a soothing balm

This was a mistake, she breathes
Without you how am I to be free
This was a mistake
Leaving you, I lost myself completely

You are all that keeps me here.
On this ground so unstable
Your name in my skin and under my breath
Is all that keeps me here.

11-6-2008

Did I tell you you're nice?
Can't believe I only met you tonight
I can see where this is headed
But the path ahead is shaded
Grey. And I could be wrong
But

I'm not worth all this waiting around
I'm not worth all this waiting around
I want to love you but I have no heart
So walk away before I tear your insides
Apart.

So we made it past the first week
You hung around to watch me stare at my feet
Don't know why you don't believe when I say
You're not gonna like me after today

I'm not worth all this waiting around
I'm not worth all this waiting around
I want to love you but I have no heart
So walk away before I tear your insides apart

We are the desert

The air is parched
Consuming all dampness
within the bodies walking the streets
Their hair, their skin
Their souls dry up
Leaving them hollow husks
Now, the air is heavy
It falls, unable to bear the wetness
Seeping out and onto a rock.
In rivers it flows
All the dampness the air couldn't hold
Onto a rock
Through the grass
Across the empty ocean
To my feet and through my toes
Up and up through my body
And out of my eyes
It flows.

30-04-2008

I'd like to be original
But I just dont think that's possible
What I need to say
Has been said
Nine million seven thousand times
before
But hopefully, hopefully, I say it best
You're my everythingYou're my everythingYou're my everythingYou're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everythingYou're my everythingYou're my everything
And I've been hurt
And I've been broken
So be careful now
And tell me
Am I your anything?

30-4-2008

I'd like to be original
But I just don't think that's possible
What I need to say
Has been said
Nine million seven thousand times
before
But hopefully, hopefully, I say it best
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
You're my everything
And i've been hurt
And I've been broken
So be careful now
and tell me
Am I your anything?

Everything Is

Things are looking up
The days are not so hard
Maybe i'm finally out of bad luck
Now that you're here

The cold doesn't bite with teeth
The dark is not laughing at me
Maybe summer is on her way
Now that you're here

(Chorus)
I swear I wasn't even trying
To fall into your lap
But I wont pretend
Wont say i'm not glad
This has been a long time coming


Getting up is easier
When you are next to me
I've always had doubts
But you help me see clearly

Everything is a little better
Everything is a little brighter
Everything is everything is
Everything is.
Now that you're here

(Chorus)

Beyond Exhaustion is Satiation

Blurred vision and a heavy head
Isn't too high a price to pay
For the moment of clarity that comes at dawn
When you realize that you are not alone
Anymore.

Aeternum Vale

This is the last last time
I let you under my skin
The light is right
I see the deceit in your eyes

You will never change
I'm sorry
Stop getting off on yourself
Get over yourself
Just like I'm over you

Chorus
Why couldn't I see
It was never meant to be
I deserve so much better
so much more

You will never change(I'm sorry for you)
Stop getting off on yourself (Get over yourself)
I'm over you
i'm over you

(Chorus)

draft1ofC'sSong

this could have been our love song
but instead
it will be three minutes of
i still dont know what went wrong

Round Neck

i will stay awake tonight
hoping to make you smile
the way i used to
yesterday

you will not remember
the time we spent
short and sweet
over

i will give you this

on your 18th birthday

you will put it on one day

unassuming

you will never know

that you wear my heart

on your sleeve

always

Getting Physical

I am moving
Rather convincingly, i think
I am conversing
Quite remarkably well
For a being
this
emotionally emaciated

This was the quickest of blows,
That left me in the lowest of lows


Dont leave me, I'm leaving
Stay with me, Until i have to go
Don't walk away, I'M LEAVING
I need to feel you still, just a moment more
Don't leave me, just yet

Personification of Contained Aggravation

On the pavement
By a tree
In the shadows
I will wait.

On the outside
Looking in
Through a window
I will wait.

In this room
On the floor
In the dark
I will wait.

Surrounded by people or alone, Walking fast or standing still, In the afternoon heat or chill of the night, Lying on the ground or from a great height

Will you keep me waiting?